A soulmate can make your life worse than hell dude... We've to go through the process of them because we don't have other options we need them with us we have to do according to them it's okay no matter how much they are controlling us actually. You love to stay in control of them because.I don't have any problem with your decisions I really love to stay in your control fucking obsessed with to stay in your control, please keep me in your control, I'm giving the access of my life to control you are the owner of me. I've no problem to stay in your control I'll be more happy to live with you like the way you want me.I am scared to even meet you, I feel that you'll no longer be mine and I will get used to seeing you every single time, that's why I don't meet you and just want to live without you, even If I don't get the person who will be my love then it doesn't matter that I don't want you anymore that's was always be the same as well...(Other's case's sometimes you should "Never beg for a friendship or a relationship with anyone. If you don't receive the same efforts you give. Cut them off".(True one will never disappoint you remember this for some case's not for everyone those who are having issues and suffering with their relationships the advice is only for them to understand and cut off it,never pour your efforts in a wrong glass it will always be same try to leave them and wait until you find someone for you).(They said " Don't get too close. It's dark inside. It's where my demons hide"And I answered "Get too close, there is a hell inside of me, it's where your demons can live now will you be mine here your demons is safe").(I wanted you so much that my desire will never decreased with the time, the desire will always increase for you, I wanted you so much that even when you're weren't here, I wanted you so much. Even after everything, I wanted only you it doesn't matter If you wanted someone else, because I loved you so much If you went away, my love would also go with you.Because I loved you so much that's why I didn't leave any desire within me,I gave myself to you because I loved you so much.That now I don't have any desire greater than you, If I lost you, I'll let my love go with you too,Because I loved you so much that there's no more desire within me, and you say that I wanted you so much that you left me and went away,I loved you so much that I even gave up my own love for you.) (I'm caught in a web of your feelings. Because I'm obsessed with you blindly can't stop myself. I'm addicted to you. And trust me for you I'll happily cross every single boundary conditions If it means making this you're mine. If it means forcing you to be mine. I'm walking away from you and at the moment getting over you.Because once you're mine, now you're mine)